Sometimes

I can't get over you, you can't get over her, she has found another man but (maybe) still can't get over you. Someone said to me, "Let it flows like a river, and you'll find a way." What river? This is not a river! This is just a satanic circle that keep making us stuck. Keep making us go back and forth without moving elsewhere. Like a complicated labyrinth that keep making us never come to an end. Like a broken record that plays over. I can't count how many times you promise me that you'd show restraint, but over again you drown me in pain. And over again, I forgive you like nothing happened.

You know? Sometimes I just want her to get back to you until you both can get back together and live happily ever after. So you both won't break anyone else's heart or mine anymore.
And me? Sometimes I just want to fall in love again with another man that also loves me to death, be distracted to him, steal all my love back from you, and give it all to him. I'd happy, you either, and that's all that matters.

But is it funny how the universe is playing with us? Because it's always been you and your fucking line that keep making me stay. It's always been you that I always love to death. It's always been me that never be able to leave, no matter how tired I've been or I'd be.
But it's always been her that you can't ever forget, not me.

You never loved me, Dear. You only care.