Calon Suami Idaman Itu...

• Seperti Beno Wicaksono (Divortiare & Twivortiare, Ika Natassa), yang jika kau tanyakan kepadanya tentang masa lalunya, ia akan enggan menjawab karena menjaga perasaanmu, bukan mengumbar-umbarnya dan membuatmu cemburu.

• Seperti Hugo Olivera (starred by Mario Casas, Tres Metros Sobre El Cielo a.k.a Three Steps Above The Sky, 2010), yang mengerti dan benar-benar melaksanakan jika kau mengatakan "Tidak", "Jangan", atau "Berhenti".

• Seperti Travis Maddox (Beautiful Disaster, Jamie McGuire), yang telah menjadi bad boy sepanjang hidupnya tetapi bersedia berubah hanya untuk bersamamu.

• Seperti Ted Beaudine (Call Me Irresisitible, Susan Elizabeth Phillips), yang memasang topeng di hadapan semua orang tetapi tak segan menunjukkan dirinya yang sebenarnya kepadamu karena dia hanya percaya padamu.

• Seperti Edwin Chandrawijaya (Sketsa, Ari Nur Utami), yang sifat hormat dan lembutnya terhadapmu bukan semata-mata karena mempunyai keinginan, tetapi karena memang ia seorang the real gentleman.

• Seperti Ryan Fikri (Diorama, Ari Nur Utami), yang sudah disodori banyak wanita cantik, tetapi tetap wanita yang hatinya paling cantik lah yang ia pilih.

• Seperti Vadin, (Marriageable, Riri Sardjono), yang tidak pernah berhenti mencintaimu dibalik segala kekuranganmu, dan tidak pernah menyerah untuk menunjukkannya dan membuatmu mengerti.

• Seperti Choi Yoon (starred by Kim Min Jong, A Gentleman's Dignity, 2012), yang terus gigih berjuang agar bisa bersamamu, walaupun kau dan dia ditentang semesta tuk bersatu.

• Seperti Dimas Mahesa Radyatama (Bunga Cantik di Balik Salju, T. Andar), yang tak pernah sedikit pun perkataan atau perbuatannya membuatmu ragu.

• Seperti Park Soo-Ha (starred by Lee Jong-Suk, I Hear Your Voice, 2013), yang selalu menepati janjinya untukmu tanpa pernah sedikit pun berniat untuk mengingkarinya.

• Seperti Wyatt Bloodsworth (Drop Dead Gorgeous, Linda Howard), yang tak mudah untuk terus marah kepadanya, karena kau tau pria itu mencintaimu sedalam kau mencintainya.

• Seperti Adam Bennet (starred by Patrick Wilson, Morning Glory, 2010) yang memiliki stok kesabaran dan pengertian melebihi perkiraanmu, dan membuatmu tak pernah berhenti bersyukur atas keberadaannya di sampingmu.

• Seperti Max Conroy (Almost Forever, Linda Howard), yang tidak pernah berlaku kasar ataupun egois kecuali untuk satu hal; menahanmu tetap di sisinya. 

• To be continued... :)

Gambar diambil di sini.

Skenario yang Tidak Dipentaskan

"Aku hanya minta secuil alasan di otakmu dan sebentar saja dari waktumu."

"Untuk apa?"

"Menuntut penjelasan darimu, memakimu, mencelamu sesuka hatiku, menangis keras di depanmu, lalu tersenyum lebar dan pergi menjauh."

"Kau bilang kau sudah memaafkanku."

"Otakku sudah, hatiku belum."

"Kau masih mencintaiku?"

"Ya."

"Menyesalkah kau sekarang?"

"Tidak."

"Lalu mengapa sekarang kau ingin menuntut penjelasan dan mencaci-maki diriku?"

"Aku ingin bisa memaafkanmu dengan hatiku."

"Perlukah itu?"

"Ya, sangat perlu."

"Mengapa? Kau tidak bisa melupakanku?"

"Kenapa aku harus melupakanmu? Kau itu pelajaran, agar kelak aku tidak lagi mengatakan 'ya' kepada orang macam kamu."

"Lalu mengapa kau ingin memaafkanku?"

"Agar lepas bebanku, dan tidak lagi mencintaimu. Aku tidak ingin menyakiti orang lain."

"Menyakiti orang lain?"

"Ya."

"Bagaimana bisa?"

"Aku pernah merasakan bagaimana sakitnya mencintai seseorang yang terus mengingat orang lain dalam hidupnya, dan aku tidak ingin seperti itu. Aku tidak ingin seperti kamu."

(Di titik luka, pada suatu malam. Sejenak lega menyergapku, dan rindu akan bahagia mengampiriku. Lalu aku sadar, aku harus memaafkanmu dan melepasmu tanpa ragu)

gambar di ambil di sini.

Vanessa Williams - Save The Best for Last

Sometimes the snow comes down in June
Sometimes the sun goes round the moon
I see the passion in your eyes
Sometimes it's all a big surprise
'Cause there was a time when all I did was wish
You'd tell me this was love
It's not the way I hoped or how I planned
But somehow it's enough
And now we're standing face-to-face
Isn't this world a crazy place?
Just when I thought our chance had passed
You go and save the best for last
All of the nights you came to me
When some silly girl had set you free
You wondered how you'd make it through
I wondered what was wrong with you
'Cause how could you give your love to someone else
And share your dreams with me
Sometimes the very thing you're looking for
Is the one thing you can't see
But now we're standing face-to-face
Isn't this world a crazy place?
Just when I thought our chance had passed
You go and save the best for last
Sometimes the very thing you're looking for
Is the one thing you can't see
Sometimes the snow comes down in June
Sometimes the sun goes round the moon
Just when I thought our chance had passed
You go and save the best for last
You went and saved the the best for last.

(Untukmu yang telah menaburkan luka dan membuatku bersyukur karenanya)

Banyak Hal

Ada banyak hal yang terkadang tak layak dilihat
Bukan benci, tapi hanya menyadari bahwa semua itu tak lagi berarti
Ada banyak hal yang terkadang tak pantas didengar
Bukan menghindar, tapi hanya memahami bahwa beberapa kata beranjak memudar
Ada banyak hal yang terkadang tak pantas diucapkan
Bukan mendendam, tapi hanya mengerti bahwa yang terbaik adalah diam
Ada banyak hal yang terkadang harus dilupakan
Bukan sok kuat, tapi hanya mencintai hidup lebih baik dengan membiarkannya berjalan seiring waktu tanpa masa lalu yang mengikat
Ada banyak hal untuk dicintai, dilukai, dibenci dan dimaafkan
Tetapi ada juga banyak hal yang secepatnya dipersiapkan
Mengosongkan hati seraya memilah memori
Mengisinya dengan pelajaran dan stok kesabaran
Agar jika nanti tiba waktunya, yang punya kunci abadi akan nyaman tinggal di dalamnya tanpa sakit hati
Tanpa ada rasa ragu yang menyelimuti karena sudah tidak ada siapa-siapa lagi.

Momentum Itu...

My Chemical Romance - I Don't Love You

Well, when you go
Don't ever think I'll make you try to stay
And maybe when you get back
I'll be off to find another way

And after all this time that you still owe
You're still the good-for-nothing I don't know
So take your gloves and get out
Better get out
While you can

When you go
Would you even turn to say
"I don't love you like I did yesterday"

Sometimes I cry so hard from pleading
So sick and tired of all the needless beating
But baby when they knock you
Down and out
It's where you oughta stay

And after all the blood that you still owe
Another dollar's just another blow
So fix your eyes and get up
Better get up
While you can
Whoa, whooa

When you go
Would you even turn to say
"I don't love you like I did yesterday"

Well come on, come on

When you go
Would you have the guts to say
"I don't love you like I loved you yesterday"

"I don't love you like I loved you yesterday."

Agnes Monica - Karena Ku Sanggup

Ku tak bisa paksamu tuk tinggal di sisiku

Walau kau yang selalu sakiti aku dengan perbuatanmu

Namun sudah kau pergilah

Jangan kau sesali

Karena ku sanggup walau ku tak mau

Berdiri sendiri tanpamu

Ku mau kau tak usah ragu

Tinggalkan aku

Kalau memang harus begitu

Tak yakin ku kan mampu

Hapus rasa sakitku

Ku akan selalu perjuangkan cinta kita

Namun apa salahku

Hingga ku tak layak dapatkan kesungguhanmu

Tak perlu kau buat aku mengerti

Tersenyumlah karena ku sanggup

(Aku baik-baik saja, sungguh.)

Sekarang, Siapa Menyakiti Siapa?

Cinta ini masih membasuh dan membiru
Tidak lepas, belum tuntas
Tapi kini apakah berlaku kata-kata itu terngiang di telingamu?
Karena kita memutuskan untuk memisahkan setapak, tak lagi bersama-sama dalam pijak
Jujurku? Kau pergi aku kelabu
Kau menyerah lalu mundur perlahan
Dengan alasan takut akan sakit-ku kelak, kau menjauh tanpa segan
Kini ku tanyakan, berapa kali kau sakiti aku dan aku bertahan?
Pernahkah aku menyerah saat kau buat aku berdarah-darah?
Kau tahu aku sekuat baja karena sudah ku pastikan dirimu untuk kucinta
Tetapi pesimis-mu menelan habis seluruh asa
Seluruh kemungkinan dan goresan masa depan yang pasti kita dapatkan kalau saja kita sedikit lagi berusaha
Kau tahu?
Tidak setitik pun air mata jatuh mengiringi kepergianmu
Tidak juga derita yang meraja, atau duka yang menggelora
Hanya letih, hampa, mati rasa
Seraya tertawa ironis lalu bertanya, inikah akhirnya?
Inikah hasil perjuanganku yang bagimu mungkin tak seberapa?
Diam, aku mengubur duka seraya menerima
Menerima bahwa mungkin aku memang tak layak mendapatkan kesungguhanmu, sekeras apapun ku berusaha
Tapi tak lama kemudian, kau menebar janji
Seakan-akan mimpi, kau berujar suatu saat kau akan kembali
Ya Tuhan, apa maumu sebenarnya?
Aku bukan bola kasti yang bisa kau bolak-balik sesuka hati.
Dengan tetes air mata yang akhirnya jatuh juga, aku menyadari ternyata seperti itu aku di matamu
Aku bersiap melangkah, kau jegal jalanku
Aku menguatkan pertahanan karena aku tahu bisa dengan mudah kau golakkan bahtera hatiku
Dapat dengan mudah kau ubah 'tidak'-ku menjadi 'mau'.
Aku menjauhkan diri, bersikap biasa saja, seraya mempertahankan tekad tidak ingin terluka
Tapi ternyata hal itu membangun opini tersendiri untukmu bukan?
Karena di sinilah kita, saling membakar, dengan bangga saling menunjukkan luka.
Salahkah asumsiku? Salahkah diriku? Tunjukkan padaku mana yang benar bagimu!
Jika kau tetap bertahan dengan ketidakjelasan, maka di mataku selamanya akan tetap begitu.

For You, Natural Born Charmer

You know? Whenever you tell me that you have groupies, get a gift, or there's so many girls care about you, I never get jealous. I'm sad.
Why? Well, I don't know whether you just want to be honest or try to make me jealous. But the only thing I get is you just show me that you're fine at all even though I'm not there, never feeling lonely, and totally set 'cause there's so many girls replace me to give attention to you. And here I am just like a careless, useless girlfriend who can't do anything.
We love each other and I believe that without any doubt. But... Do we need each other? I really want to say yes but unfortunately what you've done seems like showing me that we don't.

Cody Simpson - Summertime of Our Lives

Everyday at twilight

When the sun turns red in the sky

I think of you on that shoreline

Brushing the hair from your eyes

We were drawing our names in the wet sand

And running away as the tide rolled in

Wherever you are, no matter how far,

I promise that I won't give up on you

They say out of sight means out of mind

But they couldn't be further from the truth

Cause I'm in love with you

I'm still in love with you

Even if there is an ocean

Keeping your heart from mine

That doesn't mean I'm not thinking

About you all the time

I'm counting the days 'til I see you,

And somewhere I know that you are too

Wherever you are, no matter how far,

I promise that I won't give up on you

They say out of sight means out of mind

But they couldn't be further from the truth

Cause I'm in love with you

I'm still in love with you

La da da da oh

We had the summertime of our lives

Nothing has ever felt so right

The summertime of our lives

And even though, we had to say goodbye

I know when the water gets warm

You'll come back to me

Cause wherever you are, no matter how far,

I promise that I won't give up on you

They say out of sight means out of mind

But they couldn't be further from the truth

Wherever you are, no matter how far,

I promise that I won't give up on you

They say out of sight means out of mind

But they couldn't be further from the truth

Cause I'm in love with you

I'm still in love with you

La da da da oh

I'm still in love with you

(Kau tahu? Cintaku ini selalu baru...)

Red Jumpsuit Apparatus - Face Down

Hey, girl, you know you drive me crazy
one look puts the rhythm in my hand.
Still I'll never understand why you hang around
I see what's going down.

Cover up with makeup in the mirror
tell yourself, it's never gonna happen again
You cry alone and then he swears he loves you.

Do you feel like a man when you push her around?
Do you feel better now as she falls to the ground?
Well I'll tell you my friend, one day this world's going to end
as your lies crumble down, a new life she has found.

A pebble in the water makes a ripple effect
every action in this world will bear a consequence
If you wade around forever, you will surely drown
I see what's going down.

I see the way you go and say you're right again,
say you're right again
Heed my lecture.

Do you feel like a man when you push her around?
Do you feel better now as she falls to the ground?
Well I'll tell you my friend, one day this world's going to end
as your lies crumble down, a new life she has found

Face down in the dirt, she said,
"This doesn't hurt", she said,
"I finally had enough."

One day she will tell you that she has had enough
It's coming round again.

Do you feel like a man when you push her around?
Do you feel better now as she falls to the ground?
Well I'll tell you my friend, one day this world's going to end
as your lies crumble down, a new life she has found

Face down in the dirt, she said,
"This doesn't hurt", she said,
"I finally had enough."

(Yang aku butuhkan hanya kesabaran tanpa batas, dan ketidakmampuan untuk berkata "cukup")

Sometimes

I can't get over you, you can't get over her, she has found another man but (maybe) still can't get over you. Someone said to me, "Let it flows like a river, and you'll find a way." What river? This is not a river! This is just a satanic circle that keep making us stuck. Keep making us go back and forth without moving elsewhere. Like a complicated labyrinth that keep making us never come to an end. Like a broken record that plays over. I can't count how many times you promise me that you'd show restraint, but over again you drown me in pain. And over again, I forgive you like nothing happened.

You know? Sometimes I just want her to get back to you until you both can get back together and live happily ever after. So you both won't break anyone else's heart or mine anymore.
And me? Sometimes I just want to fall in love again with another man that also loves me to death, be distracted to him, steal all my love back from you, and give it all to him. I'd happy, you either, and that's all that matters.

But is it funny how the universe is playing with us? Because it's always been you and your fucking line that keep making me stay. It's always been you that I always love to death. It's always been me that never be able to leave, no matter how tired I've been or I'd be.
But it's always been her that you can't ever forget, not me.

You never loved me, Dear. You only care.